I still woke up at 1 AM, but was full of peace the entire night. I was able to hear Bruno Mars and Maroon5 at the gym with­out cry­ing, but I missed the kids like crazy. Some­where along the way, I start­ed pic­tur­ing my hus­band and his mis­tress hav­ing sex, and the slow wave of pain/sadness start­ed once more. I put on wor­ship music and took a nap, and when I woke up, I was ready to move forward.

My par­ents recent­ly heard Pas­tor Ron Car­pen­ter speak, so I decid­ed to look him up. I don’t think they knew about his mar­riage. They (my dad and broth­er espe­cial­ly) don’t under­stand why I would even hold out hope for rec­on­cil­i­a­tion, that I should just move on already. It’s sto­ries like this that resus­ci­tate the sliver.

https://www.christianpost.com/news/pastor-ron-carpenter-reveals-wifes-mental-illness-adultery-in-heart-wrenching-sunday-confession-106594/

https://www.christianpost.com/news/pastor-ron-carpenter-addresses-his-confession-of-wifes-adultery-40-pastors-including-steven-furtick-joined-him-at-church-107092

https://www.christianpost.com/news/pastor-ron-carpenter-and-wife-hope-carpenter-to-reconcile-marriage-with-help-of-bishop-td-jakes.html?page=1

https://www.christianpost.com/news/hope-carpenter-repents-apologizes-to-sc-megachurch-for-first-time-since-husband-ron-carpenter-revealed-marital-woes-124021/

http://www.christianitydaily.com/articles/97/20140218/pastor-s-wife-returns-husband-rebukes-church-leaders-who-divorce.htm

So that got me start­ed on read­ing more about reconciliation.

How One Mil­i­tary Cou­ple Beat the Odds

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It’s amaz­ing how just the right pro­gram comes on when I hit the remote. Today it was this episode of Joyce Mey­er’s pro­gram. It’s a Bible study on Colos­sians 3, and it could­n’t be more per­fect for what I’m deal­ing with. The path of sin starts in our mind. It’s like she’s giv­en me the map for the route my hus­band took that brought us to this point, and mak­ing me aware of how eas­i­ly any­one could fall to the same tactic.

I decid­ed to research more about the path of sin, and it led me to two real­ly great resources. The first is an arti­cle (and video) by John Piper, and the sec­ond an arti­cle by Justin Jahan­shir of James Riv­er Church.

https://www.desiringgod.org/articles/sin-deceives-you-to-destroy-you

The One Thing That Can Ruin Your Life, And How You Can Stop It From Happening

1 John 3:6 (NIV) — No one who lives in him keeps on sin­ning. No one who con­tin­ues to sin has either seen him or known him.

Today’s Playlist: