I woke up com­plete­ly rest­ed and refreshed… at 1230 AM. So I then spent the next 5 hours con­cen­trat­ing on the wor­ship music play­ing, and try­ing NOT to think about all the stuff I’ll be telling his broth­er today (didn’t work). 

I get so down when I think about what he’s done against me, against our mar­riage and fam­i­ly, against GOD! I can’t even fath­om that kind of wicked­ness, and it makes me feel ill. I want to just shake it off, nev­er hear from him again, and move on. 

And the atten­tion his Face­book post has got­ten. Every­one has fall­en for the image, and nobody knows the truth. Six-fig­ure sales? No, he’s report­ing net income of $11,000 on his 2018 tax­es. Man of God? No, he’s been cheat­ing on me for 14 years. The post and atten­tion still don’t both­er me, though. I feel like it’s an affront to God, as if he’s dar­ing God to strike him with light­ning. God has top­pled kings; he’s about to do the same to you.

One Voice Min­istry mes­sage from last night:

The Spir­it of God is declar­ing, “It is time for you to look and see that divine sur­pris­es from My hand are com­ing for you.” God dili­gent­ly rewards those who seek Him. When we seek the face of God, He opens His hands. He is open­ing His hands to release favor upon you, to open doors that no man can shut and He is open­ing His hand to release heal­ing, deliv­er­ance and abun­dance. God is about to lav­ish His love upon you. That is the word of the Lord for you this year! There are bless­ings you did­n’t even pray about that are sud­den­ly going to spring forth for you. You are about to receive good news!

The truth tru­ly does set you free. I feel so amaz­ing and hope­ful after talk­ing to BIL and BIL’s wife. I actu­al­ly don’t want the sliv­er. He’s such a mess, and the con­ver­sa­tion just remind­ed me of how the fam­i­ly is such a mess. (BIL appar­ent­ly chose to not tell his wife about the alleged molesta­tion. I saw the look on his face when I men­tioned it. His eyes got big in sur­prise, his face avert­ed from her, like I just let out an unex­pect­ed secret. I could prac­ti­cal­ly see the flur­ry of thoughts and emo­tions play out. And then his expres­sion quick­ly turned sheep­ish, as he tried to give his cry­ing wife excus­es as to why he nev­er told her. Gaslight­ing in front of me, try­ing to shift the blame from him­self to his wife’s rela­tion­ship with the sis­ter. Yet anoth­er cov­er-up in progress.) 

God would have to do a whole lot of some­thing in a whole lot of peo­ple to make this right. I’m just hap­py to have been heard. And believed. And to know that there are now two more peo­ple, and soon to be more, who will call him out and hold him account­able. What he does, is up to him. 

Even if no one believes, though, I know I am called, anoint­ed, loved, and heard by God. And I will change the world with my tes­ti­mo­ny, whether my hus­band is a foot­note or the main topic.