I wake up every day with an image of him in my mind, and deep sor­row and grief in my heart. I’ve come to terms with the 29^th. It’s going to end that day in medi­a­tion, one way or anoth­er, because he is dead set against hav­ing to go to court and face a judge. Doesn’t he real­ize run­ning from account­abil­i­ty and judg­ment here doesn’t matter? 

From the begin­ning, man could nev­er hide from God, and He is the only Judge Who is ful­ly informed of ALL the evi­dence. It doesn’t mat­ter if he’s try­ing to avoid my lawyer call­ing wit­ness­es to the stand, some tes­ti­fy­ing to his unfaith­ful­ness while oth­ers dis­cov­er his dis­hon­esty and the secrets he’s been hid­ing for so long. God was actu­al­ly the pri­ma­ry Eye­wit­ness to his heart’s every thought and intent, and every sub­se­quent evil act of decep­tion and deprav­i­ty. And He says, “For every­thing that is hid­den will even­tu­al­ly be brought into the open, and every secret will be brought to light” (Mark 4:22; Luke 8:17). You can be sure your sins will find you out (Num­bers 32:33). And you can be sure He will have His justice.*

My children’s heart­break will also tes­ti­fy against him. This morn­ing, my daugh­ter was in such a hap­py mood until 5 min­utes before leav­ing for school. All of a sud­den, she didn’t want me next to her, and then she got upset when I walked away. When I asked her what’s wrong, her face crum­pled, she buried her head on the bed, and cried, “Dadaaaa.” My heart then cried as well. I can shoul­der my own heart­break, but see­ing what his sin is doing to the kids – it’s just not right, and it doesn’t go unno­ticed by God. Just like Abel’s blood, their every tear, their every moment of pain, sad­ness, and con­fu­sion, cries out to Him and is col­lect­ed… and He will repay (Psalm 56:8).

*I came across two great arti­cles when search­ing for these Scrip­ture ref­er­ences. This first one is a must-read: “Noth­ing Safe About Secret Sin” by John MacArthur. It links to oth­er great arti­cles as well:

• How should we deal with a pro­fess­ing Chris­t­ian who is involved in sin?
• The Sin­ful­ness of Sin
• Mourn­ing Over Your Sin
• Free­dom from Sin (Study Guides)
• Keep­ing a Pure Conscience

The sec­ond is from The Pul­pit Com­men­tary, Be Sure Your Sin Will Find You Out, by E.S. Sprout. In short, he says, “These words, though ulti­mate­ly true of every sin, are spo­ken of actions which, going forth from us, per­form their mis­chie­vous errands, but will come home again, bring­ing ret­ri­bu­tion with them…  We can­not escape from our sins by lapse of time, care­ful con­ceal­ment, repen­tance, [or] death.”