I didn’t go to sleep til 5 AM. I was going through all the screen shots I took of our Face­book mes­sages, try­ing to file them and com­pare them to his finan­cials. I woke up a few hours lat­er, already in prayer and lis­ten­ing to wor­ship music. The song play­ing was, appro­pri­ate­ly, Let­ting Go by Stef­fany Gretzinger. 

I got to Face­Time with the kids for two hours, and it com­plete­ly lift­ed my spir­its. I love them so much. They’re such won­der­ful kids. God has such amaz­ing things in store for them, and I’m going to be the best I can, so I can bring out the best in them.

I spent the next few hours in the Word. I read my Proverbs chap­ter of the day, and start­ed my new devo­tion­al. My son and I sub­scribed to a Read the Bible in a Year devo that goes chrono­log­i­cal­ly. So Day 1 was Gen­e­sis 1, Luke 1, and Jude 1. Oh my gosh. it’s like rev­e­la­tion after rev­e­la­tion was com­ing, and it all seamed togeth­er with the devos, books and Scrip­tures I’ve been read­ing since 10/6. God real­ly does shout in our pain.